Today is my birthday. I am twenty-two years old. When I was younger, as a child and young teen, this is not how I imagined myself at twenty-two. I didn’t think I would be lucky enough to have met a wonderful man who would propose to me, and who would father three beautiful daughters for me to carry and raise. I didn’t think I would be packing up ready to move into a lovely new house, and planning how to make the garden nice for the children, and whether we could try growing some of our own vegetables. We don’t have very much money, but I feel like I am living the dreams of the younger me. I have what was and is most important to me. I am so very grateful for these things.
I also didn’t expect that I would be struggling with my mental health, and finding myself frustrated that I can’t always appreciate the things I listed above. I am feeling thankful though that I realise that I’m ill, and that I’m determined to get the help I need. When we do move to our new house, I’ve found that we will be able to change to a new GP, a surgery with one doctor that specialises in mental health issues, so I’m hopeful that I will be taken seriously by my new doctor. I’ve also found that on the NHS website, where you can leave comments and reviews about a surgery, that my current surgery has a lot of people saying that they haven’t been taken seriously. This is very reassuring as I now know I wasn’t just being over-sensitive about my visits there.
On a less serious note, my partner has bought me the sewing machine that I wanted for my birthday! I’m utterly thrilled with it! So far I have managed to thread it all, and sew along two edges of an old tea towel, getting tangled up about four times in the process. It is great fun! I’m really loving getting to know my new machine, which I have decided to name Sigrun. I don’t know why I feel that my machine should have a name, but there you go. Now I am on the lookout for any good books or resources for absolute beginners, and any really easy projects I can have a go at. I’m also looking for really cheap fabric to practice on, so I’ll be having a look at my local fabric shop tomorrow, but I’d love to hear of any websites that sell cheap, easy-to-sew fabrics that I can learn with.
From other people, I have been given a provisional driving license, a huge box of chocolates, a massive bag of funky craft buttons and some spending money. My partner is currently in the kitchen cooking a nice meal for me, and then we are going to curl up on the sofa and watch some of our favourite TV shows. I’m feeling very lucky right now!